18.9.2010 : The moment of truth

Today was a fun day but i am sad because i lost a person that i need the most.... i just sit and wonder, then i cant tahan i tak a paper with a inkless pen and right like i am stupid.... everyone pass by said WAH NOOB!!! but for me it cuts me like a blade if i dun write it out, not that i am not telling anyone but i just dunno who should i tell... everytime i see someone i really wan to cry, why time just wont turn back and can things last forever? i tot i knew the answer but now i can say i am really out my ideas. I feel like now i am invisible to everyone, the see me like they saw a ghost, everyone running away from me... So nowdays i will be staying here on my own. Today i am happy to see back my friends but i just want someone to open mouth more... Its been days i never wished you goodnight d... Everytime i see people in pain but i am just always helpless, i am really a rubbish. I just want to be there when you need me but now, u just dun see me anymore although i stand infront of you, today i went into the room where we kept our bags, i see your bottle there, then suddenly i talk to your bottle asking the questions that i wanted to know the answer. It may sound a little bit stupid but it just hurts so much. After this 2 weeks i am really tired but i still miss the times when we are busy, although we are busy but that time of fun cant be found anywhere else.... after 2 weeks of worring and busy now it has come to a end d, if like that i rather i will be always busy. Sometimes people dun reply me, i feel angry but now, i feel worry le. Everytime i talk, no one will listen but i keep on telling myself i just a kid that no one will see, but i cant blame them, where would people listen to a kid... haiz my leg hurts alot....