21.5.2010 : Forgive and Forget

Sometimes is better to forgive and forget than rather chasing for other peoples responsibility...... today I saw the girl I admire with the other boy that have a scandal with her..... I guess they are together liao so I wont mind to let go but i just hope that she admit it than leave me hanging in the middle..... you just dunno how much it hurts when i see u do that...... it is like i just wanna know what u actually mean..... do you love him ? i dun mind to let go but please..... i dont love you like i loved you yesterday.... u always called me to let go but i just insist..... I see you smile every time makes me feel like seeing a sun rise...... the comfort feel is there, i really wan to see it everyday..... but i cant because now i choose to give up le although i know i cant get to decide.... every time i see you i am speechless..... you always asked me to smile, but i just cant do it.... not that i dun wan to but the thing that will make me smile is you talking to me and smile like you use to be..... i hope you can always remember what i said although you are always so forgetful..... i am so tired of this le, i tried not to thing but the thing that we always wanna forget is always remaining in our mind.... bye bye love.... now i guess i am not yet mature to fall in love anymore.... so hope that i will never fall into this hole anymore !

8.5.2010 : Life's meaning

Well now i feel like when the song is without its lyrics it's meaningless..... Well i heard a song name ' boxer ' well its a story about a poor boy who need's to work in a city, even being a boxer.... Although it cuts so deep and the pain he felt but he didn't give up but the fighter still remains..... Well sometimes i really like to hear old songs because of their lyrics brings me alot of things to learn in life. We must always look before we leap because the water runs deep and there will not always be someone there to pull you out. Well i am always young enough to look at the future and old enough to look back at the mistakes that i made and always try to improve. Well whenever i feel stress, pain or bad i would always say i am leaving, i am leaving but the problems still remains..... Later will be my sports day 100m even, by now i am still worry.... i know the most i can get is 3rd place but i just hope to get it because i wan it so hard..... i know everything wont come so easy so i must really work very very hard to get my gold. But sometimes i really dun wan to lose because i know that there's no way people can do it but i cant. Everyone is equal so i believe i can climb to the top place also if i work as hard as people do.... I cannot be too proud of people's achievement but must put it as a example for me so that i will always do more harder to ever achieve what i wanted..... But sometimes i really duno where should i go 1st or wait? I can learn how to forget and look ahead but i just cant stop the memory's from popping out to my mind..... I always look at the sunset because the sunset is not usually so easy to be saw because its one beauty of nature.... i appreciate every moment i get to see it haha..... Although people have different status but they do earn ever respect that you gave people..... so dun take it a easy matter than you can disgrace people as you like.... Your nothing different, they have parents too..... Sometimes i do think that i am the worse one.... But i wanted to always fight the way through until the day i succeed so that i will always grow to become someone who knows what is wrong and whats right to do..... Sometimes the way i talk maybe will hurt other people's feeling so i am always looking for a way to improve myself to understand how hard it is to earn for a leaving..... I am just hoping for the best that i can do.

6.5.2010 : Everyday's challenges

Well nowdays the time is like moving more faster then it usually is..... Does that mean the end of the world is now nearer ? Well sports day is near and all preparation has been done but i am just worried of my final in 100m and 4X100.... Last year at least a medal but dunno this year will i be so lucky to get one..... Once again forced to go for marching every year the same.... + so hot under the sun at abt 9-12.... Last year the sports day is at 8 am but now at 2pm means extra hot, dunno where the teachers found out the idea of having sports day in the afternoon which will bring alot of harm to the students..... Thats why now i must find a way to skip the marching but the form 5's always dun allow..... Now it looks like everything and everyone is falling apart, i just wished i had the power to pull them back together so our hearts will be one and united. Well i am always looking for a person who can share my feelings.... Sometimes i feel annoyed to answer a person who always talk like there's a knife in his words that always make me feel angry and wanted to fight....Why will people change so fast, sometimes they are good but sometimes there are worse than a pet.....

4.5.2010 : All about life

Just dunno why now i know that life is really life a candle.... a blow then bye bye already. This year alot of unlucky stuff happened. Then alot of chaos in the family and just feel like i am always been hated by people or is it just my own feelings??? I always needed time on my own but i guess i just need someone by my side....I just dunno how to communicate with people, like everything i said people wont like to hear. Why every fight will involve me, I just feel very innocent suddenly got scolded for nothing....Why people will change so suddenly or is it i am the one who changed? Can i own some chances to every talk??? Why people will never let me do so? So tired le always there will be some sad memories pomp into my mind but this is not what i choose..... People say i always emo but if there think the things that i tough of then they will be the same too don't they? I always wanted to study but just don't always get the mood to do so....